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Feel like I’m constantly losing things / something. As though I have become aware of each particle of skin dried and gone. Aware in a way that I’ll soon be washing my bed sheets daily. Or I won’t. But be conscious of sinking deeper and deeper into myself each night (or staying in it each day). I wonder is this or isn’t this connected to the times I, for no known reason, decide to stop bathing or at least stop washing my hair for days (not weeks, not yet) and then am struck dumb when a friend asks, “But, why?”